This tends to make for a rough start to a childs life, especially when your own mother can't fully function from it and when your own mother turns to outward appearance of perfection to be the answer. This is not a slanderous statement towards her, Just a highlighted aspect to who my mom is. Dressed well, thinks woman and men all have their own place-not equally i might add. This is just a small reason as to why here and i don't see eye to eye.
My point here is, i have had my son for almost 4 months. all day, every day. I used to see my fathers time with me as almost not worth anything because it was so short. In reality he spent a lot of time with me watching and helping me grow up. So i think i have to apologize to him for minimizing our time that we did have together. If i were to die when ernie was 1 yr and a half that would be next Christmas. What a terrible thought.
Anyway, i see my time i had with my father different now. I also think he may of known before he died that I was a bit different, not like anyone else or my mother. Lil miss independent they would call me. My father knew me more then i thought.
I find great comfort in this. I think having my son has helped me deal with his lost and his absence in my life.
Where is the big opera music when you feel like you had an revelation?
- Mood:
calm
I love Christmas so much i would live in Christmas land all the time! it fills me with such joy, and glee.it really does. i freakin love the holidays!
We set up most of our lawn decor, we started with the inside decor.This years color theme is red and gold.
I wish my closest and most dearest friends lived closer. I really wish sandy lived back in pa, and mariana as well. I don't feel them apart from m just too far.
Sean and i need to talk. I am about to pull out of the wedding. Seans been very good to me but recent crap is about all i can take. so i think after i talk to sean i will make my decision on pulling out of the wedding or not.
This situation is very disappointing. He really hurt my feelings and i have taken about enough.
This should be interesting.
We have a personal trainer to whip us in gorgeous solid specimens of all kinda sexy ! lol
Her name is Shirley. Shes rough but firm. I like her training style. he is molding me on a strict plan and incorporating weight training. she said my core is pretty solid but my lawyer back is not.
She was impressed by how much weight we had lost on or own and how we need her to take us the full home run. this is 2 days a week with her... wahhooo!
Thanksgiving went well. quiet uneventful. i hung out with ernies cousins and Ernie aunt Janet and grandma, Lil E's great grandma.
i have an essay to do for school, i also have to get my transcripts from 3 schools :(
long week ahead...
I need a night of drunken sillyness
My christmas party is comming up. i am soooo psyched!!!!!!! gonna be so much fun! i got santa to come hang out too!
i think i need a arizona trip soon:)
- Mood: calm
1. what are three ways to win your heart?
LOYALTY. you could be blowing obama personally but if you are loyal friend or person that cares about me, you will have my heart forver. as well as my loyalty
Trust-i need to feel i can trust you.
allow me to be me. it may not always be pretty but i need to be free and me. and when i mess up i always learn
2. do you like lightning?
i used to. ever since this dog, i cant stand it. it terrifies her.
3. have you ever cut someone else’s hair?
yep
4. last person you said ‘i hate you’ to?
i only say that jokingly. i never say i hate you to someone i really do feel hate for. bad things happen
5. rain or sunshine?
sun. but i admit rainy days in between are nice.
6. last stupid thing you said to anyone?
i'll give it shot. i got screwed again, not to mention 7 to 8 pages of ate mail from my brother
7. biggest turn off?
bad teeth
8. fave movie?
Gigi is my fav!!!! then dirty dancing... then te 1950 society flick flims. love!
9. would you date someone who smokes? yes but id ask them to not smoke in my house
10. would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?
no. i am over people and their addictions, no place here
11. what’s your biggest turn on, physically?
strong arms.
12. would you have sex w. someone you weren’t dating?
yes-sometimes you just wanna get laid
13. have you ever missed someone and regretted breaking up with them?
Yeah
14. have you ever dated someone more than once?
Yes.
15. if you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be?
christian bale.
16. what’s your relationship status?
married
17. do you like cuddling?
I like to cuddle.
18. do you hold grudges?
yes. i try not too
19. do you regret dating anyone?
not really -i think it all got me here. the pain was worth it
20. hugger or kisser?
I love both.
21. missing someone?
my husband- so distracted by work
2. most important lesson you’ve learned from your exes?
you worked well at first but not in the end- you can probably be friends.
23. are you happier single or in a relationship?
In a relationship, .
24. how important are looks?
loooks are very important. and his/her view on looks is important
25. would you rather date someone who was SUPER-HOT or someone who was nice?
Nice.
26. do you stay friends w/ the people you’ve dated?
all of them.
27. would you fight over someone you wanted to be with?
no. been there once and it was so ghetto, he wasnt worth the nickle and dime show we put on. i cut him loose.
28. do you kiss on the 1st date?
yes
29. if someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?
i have in the past, it was so painful. so i wold say no on this one
30. some random girl comes up to you and says “who the hell are you”? What do you say back?
who the hell are you!
31. are you spoiled?
nope
32. name three things you would not tolerate in a relationship?
Lying, no job, abuse
33. which one of your friends do you think would make a good prostitute?
i think sandi would make a great madam- you know head of household. i think anyone could be a prostitute.
34. did you miss anyone today?
my cat alesis. i didn' know last christmas wa sour last holiday. this house is just not the same with him gone. i miss him so much
35. last time you cried?
last week, i was really frustrated.and before that. labor. i dont really cry all that much, it take a lot
36. Who/what made you cry?
things not working out and rock and hard place situacion. i skippedfrom annoyed, right over pissed off, to the crying from a long day of everything going wrong.
37. are you a forgiving person?
much more then i used to be
38. would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend?
lets not even get into this question...i ad some awful boyfriends and some shitty friends.
39. i’ve come to realize the last person who gave me a hug…
is snoring reallllly loud.
40. are most of your friends guys or girls?
Guys.
41. how long does it take you to get ready to go out ?
45 min
42. how many people do you know of named Adam ?
not many
43. are any of your friends cheerleaders ?
1-heather
44. what was the last thing you burnt ?
incense
45. what is your full name?
erin mary murphy
46 what color is the bra you have on now ?
no bra. built in tank top
47. do you straighten your hair every day?
yes
48. do you worry about the size of your boobs?
No. i like what i got
49. are you the typical girl who’s addicted to gossip?
to a degree.i love real life shit, if its malicious and juvenile shit then i want no part
50. what are your favorite girly magazines?
us- because it has good shopping deals or discounts and marie claire
51. did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
Not ALL DAY or night.
52. did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
no- but "what dreams may come" kills me!
53. would you leave the house without makeup on?
yep
54. what’s the biggest turn on about guys?
drive,ambition,being employed, ability to compromise
55. are you a girly-girl, tomboy, or in the middle?
tomboy
56. is pink truly the best color in the entire universe?
no orange and black is FLYERS! actually red,black and pink is my favorite color combo
57. what’s the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
300 $ CORSET FROM VEGAS. its from a shop in paris. its gorgeous
58. what color do you absolutely despise?
None anymore.
59. have you ever stole?
yes, celeste and i used to steal from cd store in highschool. how ever never ever got caught i wil never know. but i got it back in many other ways
60. have you set your hair on fire?
hahahah yes. jim nolan came to pick me up to go roller skating at palace, i got in the back seat lit a smoke, and my hair went up in flames. yea.
61. do you wear sweat pants?
Yes!
62. do you know anyone who has lost their virginity?
Wait....who is this survey for, a twelve year old? Lol. Yes I do.
63. have you ever ran into a door because you didn’t see it?
good lord, yes.
64. doesn’t 50 Cent suck?
he sure does
65. do you like hugs and kisses(xoxo:))?
Who doesn't?
66. do you act gangster?
No, i act like a middle class white folk who hates taxes. hahahah
67. ever made a prank phone call?
yes, to tampax. just ask mariana lol
68. last kiss?
tonight
69. what bill do you hate paying most?
FLOOD INSURANCE
70. where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
ernie and i thin romance is wings and a chicken cheese steak dinner lol
71. what did you want to be when you were growing up?
A lawyer
72. favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a guy?
play pool
73. when did you first start feeling older?
when i got a mortgage
74. favorite guilty pleasure?
mani and pedi
75. what famous person(s) would you like to have dinner with?
christian bale. forget the dinner lol
76. what famous person would you like to date?
christian bale
78. what do you hate about your school?
i love manor!
79. last person whose bed you laid in besides your own?
hotels.
80. have you lost a friend recently?
no. i am frustrated with a couple though...but not enough to ruin anything
81. ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
i have lived with guys since i was 18
82. do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
I use anime faces sometimes
83. is it easier to forgive, or to forget?
Forgive.
84. do you give out second chances too easily?
yes b/c most people deserve them
85. is your best friend pretty?
My best friend is a guy. and he's punch me if i called him pretty. i think i will lol
86. is it awkward when you run into your exes?
not for me.
87. have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yep.
88. can you make yourself cry?
no. im emotionally dead sometimes. best way i can explain it even as goth as it sounds
89. is your life simple or complicated?
both.
90. are you easily confused?
Sometimes.
92. are you taller than 5′4″?
yes
93. have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Yeah... A few people. live and learn-move on.
94. is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
as close to the color its ever been.
95. does everything really happen for a reason?
I think it does. what a painful process sometime.
- Mood:
blah
- Mood: cheerful
i am not packed yet. i have things put aside i want packed but the physical suit case in down the hall and the baby is sleeping. i am how ever showered. hair done. good to go. i don't feel so hot. i haven"t in days. i reallllly hope i am not getting sick.
th dog is at the kennel, bari is comming to care for the cats. this trip cost me way more then i expected. but again its worth it. chris is still in vermont so me in florida will be much more relaxing.
lets hope the weather is mre forgiving because right now i dont see how we wont get delayed.....
- Mood:
cold
she maybe a bitch, and not highly respected but she has a hell of a rack...HAHAHAH
Funny, i don't remember the big to do for first female house speaker. thats a pretty big acheivement. but i suppose its a bigger affair if you are black since that seems to be the only people that were ever oppressed in this country.... did i say that? i did. I'm tired of his first year being a Guinness book of records breaker marathon for the oppressed people
Women have had made huge achievements too. what about the italian and irish? they made plenty of sacrifices when they came to America. hell some died in the bridges in new york, STILL THERE, people drive over them EVERY DAY. There dead carcasses forever apart of the bridges structure.
DON'T get me wrong. i could give a shit if your black,asian, indian whatever but i hope he plans on having many other musical concerts at the white house other then latino fiesta. we have plenty in america to celebrate. I wont even get into sotomayor....shes trouble. she like half woman half man and the end to womens right to choose.
Isn't it funny that the democratic party back when it was formed was against blacks (and women) having rights, being free and counting as anything apart of society and community. The republicans fought and won for negro rights. now democrats-present party-bleeding hearts supported by yours and mine dime.... vs the Evil republicans who believe in the exact opposite of the democrats ode to care for your brother legal or illegal. hahaha
the vote only passed by 3. i can only hope more of the bill is cut out. either ay 2012 can't come soon enough but probably wont reverse anything anyway.
maybe this week an irish midget with one leg and an eye thats mentally disabled who has over come oppression and racism as a result of his lobster claw hands will push the barriers of discrimination and be the face of new political party or be elected judge... i guess we shall see.
hahahah
lesson here folks: as said by my husband- you are in charge of your own destiny. you and only you will make or break your future. i wish i had had that instilled in me when i was younger so i wouldnt have to go back to school with a kid and no sleep!
LESSON LEARNED
- Mood: chipper
so will be quick. my house is slowly turning into my tiny mcmansion!
my husband installed the chandelier in the bathroom. we are getting the guest room prepped to be a fully fucntional guest room. ernie fixed our heat issue that i didn't know we had.
our room is looking awesome. like a real get a way! paint is what we need.
i am looking to have my holidays filled with friends love and fun.
i really love where i am at.
despite i have to find some money to get a new roof at my moms. yea... ill get into that later.
the holidays are here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay!
- Mood:
bouncy
phillies-we got to the series again...2 years in a row. be proud of that- don't be greedy. though i admit it was tough losing to new york.....
its almost christmas time! my favorite holiday!
i feel rundown.i basically got ernies lunch together, fed the animals and came up early last night. i got in the tub with a glass of wine and amagazine. i had the chills. i got out, popped an ambien and crashed.i been sleeping like shit which will lead me to getting sick. im not sure how i feel yet. tired but sneezy. not a good sign.
ernie is doing something about the heat in the babies room. it was never a problem before but now we need a seperate thermostat in there. which leads to say why dont we just put the heat on in the entire house, but then again ernie is trying to cut bills i assume. either way this has a twist to being a mini "man" project. i won't question because my answer is to just turn the heat on but it always seems to be a not so simple answer on the man side. just as long as my kid has heat in there tonight i don't care enough to question
obama- NOT EVERYONE DESERVES HEALTH CARE! just warms my heart to know i am going to be paying for people that don't do a damn for society. call me cold or republican (hahahah) but its not our responsibility to support everyone, their 500 babies and woe is im unemployable because im lazy nation. there has to be another way of doing this. but we will never know.
new jersey election. not sure what to think. apparently in history when a candidate of the opposing party is elected the president does not serve a 2nd term. so since corzine was back by obama, he lost and christie wins. Obama wont have a 2nd term. ALRIGHT! fun fact mostly but if it holds true you wont hear me complain-and hopefully everyone will shut the fuck up when they get their piece of shit healthcare they want. god forbid we go for quality in this country. moving on
someone hit my car. dislodged my bumpper. didnt look bad till ernie popped the hood. now it doesnt look good. i hate people.
i want my hair done. not need but want. suppose im gonna swing it because i fired my hair and really dont wanna die it myself. i have 2 weddings and i really need to get my hair long and healthy again. its still frizzy from the over from frying. and i have natural hair issues to begin with.
my brother is in Vermont. he has some 65 yer old living in his house watching the animals. yea... hes working in vermont- getting drunk harassing Theresa. never mind the fact this makes him much closer to me!
i leave for Florida next week for 3 days. not a big trip, just enough to see my niece and introduce her to the baby. and fly back.
i managed to increase my planks and hold them for 50 seconds. my abs are on fire but a good fire. and i get tot go to the gym today and get a work out in.
me and the baby have the hiccups together. i never have the hiccups!
im getting my school stuff together. school is gonna be so hard. im tired as is. but it needs to be done. i iwsh i finished school when i was suppose to. learning things the hard way is exhausting.
my baby is the best baby ever... and funny too!
- Mood: calm
very
very
tired.
i am gonna get no work done today
but i am getting my tickets for nitzer ebb show! yea~
- Location:United States, Pennsylvania, Philadelphia
- Mood:slug
i was half tempted to drive by and see his new truck. he damaged it already. lol
i hope he leaves really early tomorrow and decides to stay in vermont. no, arizona would be better..... its way far.
why does he have to be such a tool. why can't he a sibling like a normal one. a society contributing sibling you can spend time with and not fight with.
i realized a long time ago not only is he fighting the bottle, but wheni fight with him i am fighting the bottle as well.
i know he wants a relationship with me but on his terms, which means treating you like shit and taking zero responsibility for his actions. i do not accept those terms. i don;t like being abused just because im there.
why is nothing in my life normal but my marriage. i finally have a normal life and i wouldn't trade it for my own family.
too much instability. my son will grow up better, with a soul and a conscience. there is a very cold side to me. its like i just shut off zones to myself and i dont think they will be function ing again. i think parts of me died. kinda like when you go into self preservation mode.....
this is not a bad thing. its survival....in my family. i hope my other is having a nice visit....and he doesnt go into a rage or grown temper tantrum. i am not at ease at all.
please go away chris. if you wont sober up please go states away.......
i have been on the hunt for a dress for a certain someones wedding!
i am thinking something classy like audrey hepburn style dress with a jacket....
we shall see.
tomorrow we go to this!
http://disney.go.com/disneypictures/chri
ernie took a half day for it. its a train and its christmas! we both win!
yep. ok. good night!
- Mood:
anxious
the only thing i am going to do is keep doing what i am doing. not talk to my brother, disreguard the things my mother does and let her think shes getting away with it and build my own private paradise over here.
- Mood:
annoyed
where do i sign up. because i got nothing to hide except 1 pre exisiting condition im willing to fully disclose.....or is this too much work for this plan to be fair to all americans
thats all.
- Mood:cheeky
so last week we saw the psychedelic furs at the troc. it was awesome. there was this tiny size 0 on a fat day, bitch behind us screaming the entire show. drunk and screaming. she could reach levels only dpgs in china could hear and us. since then my right ear has been in excruciating pain. at first i could deal most the day and night time i was a mess. then it morphed into an all day pain and me not being able to get out of bed all that easily from the heating pad. i finally call the doctor b/c i didnt want to repeat the infection i had right after lil e was born. i a back on the z pack and steroids start monday. my inner ear stuff is tender red, fluid and tons of pressure but not ruptured! thank god! We lose our insurance oct 24th so i atleast got this in and i am going to try and get the ENT specialist in b4 then as well.
Did anyone see the crazy ass shit with the boy in the floating aircraft- or so they thought? bad parents! BAD PARENTS!
last sat i got my tattoo fixed and a small addition. next visit i finish my half sleeve finally. yay! i have this list of things i promised or need to do when i had certain things paid off. and since i got those things paid off i been doing such. on that list was a pair of snazzy/classy knee high boots. i got 2 pair! why? i got both on clearance from dsw for the price of what one pair would of cost on sale.
I also got a lamp post installed at my moms to light up the walk way and i been pricing some flooring for their front room which is their office/computer area. nothing exspensive-cheap white peel and stick stuff. they got dark flooring which she would like it to be brighter. it is kinda ugly and i think i can afford peel and stick or lenolium (sp?)
i also just found shes been sending my brother money. i don't even need to comment further on this, do i? we pay half their mortgage(thats in our name) i just put new rugs down, i shop for them(groceries) and meds. And they are sending him money....there is a special place in hell for that piece of shit that is my brother.
I can't stand addicts. Now if my cousin sheila wants to talk she could atleast tell the truth...my brother is enough to use as fuel to throw on the fire.
i dropped our sofa cushions at the cleaners for my dog shit on them again. AGAIN! There are no words for my retarded dog.
I still can't stand Obama. This country is not getting better. it is getting worse. I wish he never got elected. i feel trapped, like an unwilling participant in America. I think Obama is shiftier then normal and his health care plan sucks. def not the approach i agree with but seems i have no choice in the matter. i do hope that if i have to learn to live with his decisions that he punished smokers, and everyone else that increases the cost of our health care system. sorry to my friends who do smoke or what are considered high risk in this industry. my attack is personal but not you as my friend. I don't think you get the right to bitch and moan about your health and not being able to afford to care for yourself if you yourself are doing knowingly harmful things like smoking. i personally don't want to pay for someones choice to live in an unhealthy manner. that goes for drug abuse,alcohol abuse and everything else that makes our costs rise. just my opinion.
its holiday time. i love the holidays! LOVE! I love my friends, they are my family ;0) i love everything about togetherness and simply celebrating the fact i have people whom i love. I think thats something special to celebrate. my son is going to grow up with some pretty awesome people around him that will encourage him to be himself in a loving awesome environment. i find that with certain friends certain parts of me come out. i could go on....but i am really grateful for what i got. and its that time of year to celebrate it! this years holiday colors are red and gold..... yay!!!
tryen to sit like dad!
my men!
halloween!
aweeee!
sleepy
he goes to salons!
with mommy!
he's like ok mom! enough!
smile!
i love this pic!
thats my boy!
RAWWWWWWWWR!- Mood: happy
this time it was my cousin sheila talkin shit. the same cousin who wouldn't tell me if she was coming to wedding or not. the same cousin i have not seen in years, like 15 of them. she is a recovering alcoholic***shocker***
at my aunt and uncles 50th reunion she was lecturing the kids on alcoholism and how we are a family of them. (probably not the best time to that sort of thing, but not far fro the truth if i must speak honestly)
then my mom text me tonight b/c she just found out sheila said some false fucked up shit about her, accusing my mom of being addicted to drugs, which is not true. not even in the slightest, smallest tiniest bit is that true. i dont know what she said about me. and it might be a good thing i don't. she trashed my grand pop, uncle michael and aunt trish. so my moms feelings were hurt obviously. this makes me mad. where in the 12 step program is it said to turn into a lying douche bag cunt. and she is really religious. its always the religious ones i swear. needless to say i am not to interested in her. she can go back to the hornet nest she flew out of.
my cousin suzie is upset b/c her daughter is in some serious trouble. so serious someone cut her brakes.sheila is beng a douche bag cunt and this craziness that is my family,is well, my family.
do i own the craziness or do run. how about i own it and run like hell! thats seems like a good option lol
i hate seeing my moms feelings hurt. this is her brother child saying this crap. how sad. family sucks.
atleast mine anyway. my brother got a job today. we shall see. i not sure if i want my son around this or not. i dont want to think family isn't important, but i dont want him thinking you have to put up with crazies either.
damn it.
damn it. damn it.
i hate when my mom has her feelings hurt. this day was so important . it was the first time the family had been together in years. what a bitch.
- Mood: annoyed
im 31. chris is 36. this shit is ridiculous and totally below me. yes i said below. this is so sub class its ridiculous. its perpetuated by people who have nothing better to do then encite an agry mob like when they were 16 and illy cheated on you. have some fucking follow through.
this is why i am such a bitch. no one takes you serious if you pussy foot and pull this woe is me crap. get of your ass and change things if you don't like how they are. simple as that. stop your repeated bitchen.
:::end rant:::
ps- i did actually say something to the point of her needing to follow through and putting the ballin her court. so i can bitch about this lol
- Mood: disappointed
i am not going silently. as you can safely assume.
today was my moms birthday. we went out and had dinner cake and so on. of course no one let the baby sleep so he is seriously over tired as his mom is.
financially we are better with less monthly bills but this shit that keeps popping is killing me. murphys law needs to move on to some one else for awhile and give me a break.
i need sleep. i have a long day ahead of me.
today was my moms birthday. we went out and had dinner cake and so on. of course no one let the baby sleep so he is seriously over tired as his mom is.
financially we are better with less monthly bills but this shit that keeps popping is killing me. murphys law needs to move on to some one else for awhile and give me a break.
i need sleep. i have a long day ahead of me.
- Mood:
exhausted
my kid completely loses his cookies for no reason. even now i have no idea why he was flipping out. blow dry my hair? no. who had the chance! has im trying to leave i knock over the humidifier with the vicks oil that went all over the floor with the water. i clean that up and finally get the kid an extra out fit, after the incident of him crapping himself in ikea, the car seat and bottles. my kid is wailing still this entire time. i finally leave forgetting the bottles.THANKGOD FOR THE EXTRA BOTTLE/TRAVEL PACK IN THE BAG! i miss my exit and have to drive to kop to do a u turn.i am 45 min late to meet kelly. to boot, the one time i dont use my turn signal! i finally get to cracker barrel and inhale food. i was starving and had much needed coffee. i finally relax and we go shop. totally what i needed. i had fun and was super appreciative Kelly didn't reem my asshole.
SATURDAY.
i am in bed to state the obvious.
- Mood: calm
I LOVE THE FOOD. THE SNACKS ARE GOOD THE CHOCOLATE IS REALLY GOOD AND I AM GONNA HVE THEIR PIZZA FOR DINNER TONIGHT!
I ALSO AM GETTING READY TO GET GO TO THE GYM. GOOD BYE MY EXTRA 3O LBS! GOOD BYE!!!
BTW YESTERDAY WAS A SHITTERIFIC DAY. YEA. SO I DECIDED SINCE I PAID EVERYONE AND THEIR MOTHER THIS WEEK, I AM GOING TO TAKE WHAT WOULD BE GROCERY MONEY AND START THE REPAIR/FINISHING PROCESS ON MY ARM SLEEVE THIS WEEKEND. ALSO SINCE I HAVE A ZERO CREDIT CARD BALANCE I AM BUYING ERNIE THE START TO HIS NEXT TATTOO.
I THINK WE HAVE BEEN WELL BEHAVED ENOUGH.
- Mood: chipper
tomorrow ernie requested we go to the gun show. which i am interested in. and since his birthday sunday will be spent in jersey with my family, saturday is his choice. i totally thought he would want to fart around and play with his tractor since he has to put it away soon.
i signed back on nutri system.i havent gained any weight but i am not losing like i want. so i think i need a strict routine again. also i miss the food. the pizza particuraly. its way good. and holiday seasonis comming up, as well as irthday cake season and long shop hours. i want to make sure i dont gain. it also cuts our food budget majorly because i have to buy very few things when i am on nutrisystem. if i am able to maintain after being pregnant and not gain since i am confidant ii can get this final 30 lbs off. i just got done paying off 3 things so i can"techinically" afford it. its worth it to me to go with out a few things the next couple months to get these final pounds gone.
shona said she wanted to work out together. we both are running frantic lately so we will see if it happens. i hope it does. having a work out buddy is fun. ernie and i dont get to as often as we used to.
- Mood: exhausted
its a day by day thing.
boy has the weather dropped! i am so ready for hoody weather....i got my lil man in his jeans and long sleeve shirt. i am ready to snuggle up for the winter, fire place and movie nights. i am excited for my christmas party this year. so many new babies this year! and i love my friends. i look forward to this every year.
my best friends fiance has been talking shit about my parenting. that i left my kid to go out. i went to a pet shop boys and he was at my mothers....an u say bitch! why is she even talking about me. what i got a kid now i cant go out??? oh you have no idea how bad i want to confront her....but i love sean and don't want to lose him....but i wanna rip her face off. if you know me, you know what "old erin" would do......
my son is becoming a lil person. hes very sweet and giggly. i love him. such a cool kid already.
i paid off my bed,rugs @ my moms and our new back door. we have no $ for awhile and thats why. i been making aggressive payments to get this shit out of here. this weeks sales allowed me an extra payment which allowed me to pay off 3 things. i am beyond excited and elated...i can start paying off medical bills now! yay!
- Mood: relieved
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